Friday 29 May 2020

Within

Don't usually write poems much. Felt inspired to by the sight of a nurse holding a vigil outside Downing Street for 4 hours. Every minute's knelt silence equal to one NHS member killed by Boris and Cummings.


Within

 

In a pale mask, the nurse kneels.

A black door in the background.

Death lives here.

In a white room, temperatures spike

And hearts fail.

In darkness, Truth flails a weakened fist.

 

On a blank page, words matter.

A message is transmitted.

Hope lights a world.

In a news flash, lies became facts

And lives ended.

In a painted corner, Treason sings.

 

In a blue sky, clouds hover.

A world spins.

A child cries in the distance.

In a pale mask, the priest intones

And makes a cross.

In smoke, the soul ascends.

 

In a side street, a banker claps.

And claps again.

Champagne is opened, poured.

In a clear glass, the bubbles fizz

And mock applause.

In silence, wealth remains.

 

In a pale mask, the nurse kneels.

A black door in the background.

Death lives here.

In a white room, temperatures spike

And hearts fail.

In darkness, Truth flails a weakened fist.

Thursday 28 May 2020

How I Almost Became A Bot


Sometimes, it is best to admit defeat.

Sometimes, you have to hold up your hand and say that you do not have the strength to carry on.

Tuesday night, I confess, was a dark night of the soul.

Some context. I have never voted, and would never vote, Conservative. My reasons are my own, personal and profoundly felt, a mixture of things witnessed, lived through and survived. Suffice to say my hopes of the current government overseeing this pandemic with anything like the humanity, bravery and humility needed for any government to help the nation recover were slim.

I tweeted in February that I expected the government’s response to be ideological rather than scientific and that I expected many unnecessary deaths to occur.

Not in my darkest nightmares did I imagine the numbers that have died. Not in any way, shape or form could I imagine a government doing the bare minimum at the last minute in a token effort to keep the death toll down. I knew Johnson was all bluster, a billowing, bellowing shitsack with the integrity of a paper toilet. I had hoped that, like his hero Churchill, he would have risen to this occasion, found an inner statesman that would surprise us all. Hope is important, the currency of optimism, but the well is full of pennies.

Johnson has spent the last 9 weeks either hiding from scrutiny, hospitalised with self-inflicted Covid, or lying to the nation. His slaphead Rasputin, Dominic Cummings, the de facto Prime Minister, ignores the advice he gave to the nation, and smirks in our faces. Laughter is contagious. Today, television viewers were treated to the spectacle of the Health Secretary, Matt Hancock, a man at least partly responsible for the many thousands of unnecessary deaths so far, laughing on national television at accusations he’d rushed forward a Track and Trace app to deflect from the Cummings scandal.

I can’t watch the news on television. It angers and sickens me. I don’t read our papers anymore. I get my news from Twitter. Like the BBC before it, Twitter has been effectively labelled a left-wing echo chamber without any evidence to suggest that’s true. I follow a variety of people and news sources on Twitter. The government has always spun stories to favour them, that is politics but, for the first time in my life, the government are lying through their teeth as a matter of course during a national crisis.

Not for the fear of lowering the national mood any further, but for the purpose of staying in power. Armed now with an army of bots, any repudiation of their statistics, any criticism of their policy is now met with identically-scripted tweets to shout you down. It is hard to be angry at an algorithm.

My anger is for those, admittedly few, Tories I know who cannot admit that their vote and their party is responsible for this continuing disaster. This is a very 21st century problem, this digital tribalism. An inability to admit blame, share the burden of guilt. In a time of sloganeering politics and alternative facts, truth does not matter as much as volume. The louder the shout, the greater the chance of victory. Only power matters. The dead cannot vote.

I’ve had to step away from Twitter, a place that has become 90 percent of my social life in lockdown, because I was turning increasingly poisonous. Writing things that would shame anybody with a conscience and deleting them before posting, I was in danger of becoming a monster, a shrieking, mindless bot of my own volition.

I’ve taken the decision, for the good of my mental health, to stay away from the one thing that was keeping me sane. Our collectively irrational populace don’t need another madman in their ranks. Time to refocus, to regroup, to find the strength for the battles yet to come.  

Monday 18 May 2020

Chernovid and Cobyl


We have entered the black hole. Falling further into time – good old linear, everyday, diurnal and atomic time whilst simultaneously putting the species-engine into reverse. We stare out of the rear window, our head turned rigidly from the future, staring at the dusty, dirty places we have been. In an ironic turn of events, this has not reversed the ageing process, rather it has taken us closer to Death than we have ever known in our inoculated bubbles of elitedom.

Across the world the spectre of Covid-19 has caused different reactions in different people. A virus lottery that seems to do different things to different people, it has affected governments in much the same random way. Those countries with right-wing, populist/racist demagogue leaders like the UK and USA have suffered death-tolls thought to be impossible in technocratic countries. Sweden, until recently the poster boy for sensible politics, opted for a herd immunity policy and it too has paid the price with thousands of deaths.

Daily statements from the Government are now so filled with lies and misleading statistics that comparisons have been drawn to the Soviet Union’s disastrous handling of the Chernobyl nuclear plant disaster. Caught on the back foot, the Soviet effort to underplay the extent of the crisis had as much effort thrown at it as the efforts to contain the fire and radiation. In the astonishing television dramatization last year, the scientist Valery Legasov asks the viewer “What is the cost of lies?”, adding “The real danger is that if we hear enough lies, then we no longer recognise the truth at all.”

The comparisons are pertinent. Central to the success of identitarian politics in Britain the last few years has been this idea that we are special, that we alone kept the spectre of Nazism from conquering the world in the 1940s. This myth of a national exceptionalism is present in much of our culture and the way History is taught at school. Similarly, the Soviet Union, a Communist superpower gained much of its strength from the idea that her people too were forged from some greater stuff than those people from elsewhere. Chernobyl could not be seen to be a symbol of Soviet weakness and vulnerability. Once the truth emerged, the facts of everyday life could be challenged, and established notions of power with it.

Johnson knows this. Unlike Chernobyl, a genuine accident, Covid-19 came with an advance warning. China, South Korea and Japan reported cases long before the first wave hit the UK. Accordingly, COBRA meetings were called. The Prime Minister, a man obsessed with the vision of him becoming leader but not so much doing the actual work involved, declined to attend any of them.

The death toll that ensued should be a scandal worthy of toppling governments. Over 50,000 people have died. Seeking to protect the economy at all costs, Johnson did the one thing leaders shouldn’t do in a crisis, he prevaricated. Having been part of a government that underfunded the NHS deliberately, he left the country ill-prepared for a pandemic. An exercise in our country’s capacity to withstand such a disaster had been held in 2016 – the results of which were so dreadful, its findings were barely reported till now. Thousands of nurses, doctors and other frontline medical staff were infected for want of basic equipment and many hundreds of those are dead.

In the panic of the first deaths, the government then did what it should have done in the first place, attempted a lockdown. But it was a half-arsed lockdown, with such deliberately vague instructions, that many felt it didn’t apply to them. The idea of national exceptionalism in the UK, fostered by forty years of fuck-you governments, has led to a personal exceptionalism. People felt that the rules didn’t apply to them.

The shutting down of all non-essential businesses saw a long overdue refining of the idea of key worker. Supermarket staff, delivery drivers, food producers and fruit and vegetable pickers – traditionally amongst the worst paid people in Britain – were suddenly the heroic wall between the public and food shortages. The Chancellor launched a national furlough scheme which guaranteed 80% of wages for the majority of people forced to stay at home.

Such a scheme would of course be massively expensive. But there was a recent precedent as to how to pay for this. The banking crash of 2008 saw morally bankrupt lenders rescued by the government printing enormous amounts of money to bail them out. This money was to be paid for by the austerity measures of the Cameron government. The poor, the sick and the vulnerable had had too easy a time of it. They would foot the bill for the largesse of a banking sector driven by nothing more than greed. A United Nations report into the devastation this caused the most vulnerable people in the UK estimated that these measures had contributed directly to the deaths of over 120,000 people. It was the first UN report ever rejected by a British Government.

As the cost of the furloughing (a scheme designed to stop people from starving to death, remember) spiralled into the hundreds of billions, the narrative of lazy and workshy Britons began to pepper the pages of our right-wing papers. Since Norman Tebbit’s infamous “get on yer bike” speech 40 years ago, this idea that the British working-class are lazy, pampered bastards has captured the imagination of our least imaginative columnists. Despite the fact that the majority of us enjoy some of the highest working hours, the least public holidays and lowest pay in the developed world, this narrative continues to hold firm.

And so the “lockdown” has begun to be eased, people forced to return to work in the middle of a highly contagious pandemic. People who can barely afford to house themselves are castigated for not being able to afford either a car or a house close to their place of work. Images of packed tube trains are tutted at by the very people who sent them off to die as cattle.

There is a British laziness and it has been deliberately encouraged by successive governments in my lifetime. It is an intellectual laziness, introduced in our schools by a selective-memory take on historical events, a curiosity for facts over context. Culturally, our seemingly endless fascination with World War 2, a global conflagration in which our opposition to Hitler stemmed from our own desire to exploit the world’s poor rather than a fear of right-wing populism, and one in which we were not the sole saviours of the day but rather a team player in a game the aftermath of which saw us able to rightly view the horrors of Auschwitz as proof of our moral victory but more hesitant to look at our part in the Bengal famine which helped fuel the British war effort.

What will be the truth of Covid-19? What will be taught in our schools in the years to come? Will there be a day of reckoning for Johnson and his incompetent gang of spivs, crooks and cronies? It is hard to imagine. Truth can be unpalatable. In this country we prefer the comforting brew of lies we sip each day. The recent 75th anniversary of VE Day saw a speech which championed those ideals of truth, honesty and self-reflection necessary for a country to move on in the face of tragedy. It was made by the German president. It was a call to be ever vigilant to the dangers of extremism, of exceptionalism and of evil. I’ll end on his words.

“Wherever your roots may lie, take a moment to revisit your memories, your family’s memories, the history of the country in which we all live. Think what the liberation and what 8 May means for your life and your actions.”

Here we beat on, boats against the current, borne back ceaselessly into the past. Our self-deluding eyes stuck to the places we have already been to, ignorant of the present, fearful of the future.

Stay alert, muthafuckas.

Wednesday 13 May 2020

Shouting


I don’t even know why I’m writing this.

I just want to drive to a Home Counties village, kick the first door in I see and smash a Tory cunt’s head through their television screen. I want to blow up the Cotswolds. I want to dig Cilla Black up and launch a nuclear missile through her decomposed skull.

60,000 dead. So far. Fuck what you’ve been told by the media. Double the total. It’s about the same as the population of Tunbridge Wells.

Forget dead Cilla. Nuke Tunbridge Wells.

They filled every care home they could with people they knew to be dying and threatened the owners of the care homes with the removal of their funding if they failed to comply. Just to keep the figures down. Most of these people were someone’s grandmother, father, aunt or uncle. All of them were people left to die by a government that has the gall to celebrate the defeat of Nazism whilst carrying out, by stealth, policies that echo the darkest days of the last century.

Having underfunded the NHS in order to let your Bransons pick up the lucrative slack, they sat by and watched as hundreds of doctors, nurses and paramedics died for want of the protective equipment they were promised.

They had the cheek to then bang pans in celebration of the heroic effort made by the NHS.

They said everyone who couldn’t work from home could stay home and have their wages furloughed by the government. And then, when the economy threatened to tank, told people to go back to work. Not you the well-paid middle manager with a laptop and Wi-Fi at home. No, not you. Those minimum wage cattle over there. Not you. Him. Her. Tell them to pack yourselves onto the bus like sheep for slaughter. Catch the virus, please. Die.

They said herd immunity would save more than it would kill. Then panicked, then changed their mind, and denied they ever said it. Instead, and this has always been their way, they introduced a cull by stealth.

Wave after wave, each mightier than the last. That’s how it’ll go. Until a vaccine is found, and who knows how that will be rolled out. My guess is we’ll all be paying a new form of National Insurance on top of everything else for the privilege of not dying. Those of us who can afford it, that is. For people on low wages or none at all, i.e. those people most likely to be unattractive to health care providers, there’ll be an even more pitiful form of healthcare after all this.

In a just world, Boris would already be in prison, awaiting trial. His advisors too. For all of his moronic acolytes claiming they were just doing as they were advised, hear this. They chose the advice they liked best. The advice that didn’t cost them or their moneyed friends anything. Intellectually they fancied using Britain as a petri dish to prove their “survival of the fittest” bollocks on a grander scale.

In everything they talk about, “survival of the fittest” is key. Good for competition, keep the price down, best return for the taxpayer. It never applies to them. Always money to save their own skin, always enough in the pot to ensure they never have to fill it themselves.

Conservatism is all about tapping into a fear that certain people have got something that they weren’t entitled to. The big flat screen telly in the lounge of someone on working tax credits. The cancer treatment of the asylum seeker. The narrative is You Give, They Take. The reality is of course, the other way round. The nurse, the surgeon, the hospital porter are all finding out the extent of the establishment’s generosity now. Just like the soldiers before them. Your country loves you as long as you don’t need proof of that love, evidence of it. Do as You’re Told. Keep Calm and Carry The Fuck On.

The post-war settlement was a blip in the relentless tide of the historical masses being exploited and crushed by the moneyed few. It irked the Tories. Churchill didn’t want an NHS and neither does Johnson. There will be no such settlement this time. Maybe a statue to a fallen nurse on an empty plinth near Whitehall. A couple of meaningless silences. Just gestures, nothing more. This after all is the land that lives for meaningless bluster. And for a country fat with Live Laugh Love bollocks this will be enough. Your house price won’t suffer. We’ll be told that the country just wants to Move On. There will be no inquiry. No one will be held accountable. The Tories will win. Again.

I don’t know why I’m saying this, if you’re reading it this far, you probably agree. I’m just pissing into a hurricane, screaming into an endless fucking void. Watching the leader of a democratic country lie through his teeth day after day about what a great job we’re doing fighting this virus, boasting what a tremendous success it is that only 30,000 people have died so far.

Still, at least Corbyn didn’t get in, eh? What a fucking disaster that would have been.